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Midnight Fantasy
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Joined: June 12, 2007
Posts: 3
Posted: 2007-06-12 04:46   
You don’t know how it feels to be an outcast and you never will unless you are… always picked last on a team or in a class project. It feels like knifes looking back upon the broken past that was shattered by peoples stupidity and greed for there own acceptance in society for I am but an outcast I know not of what it means to have true friends I have given up so I sit here along and fearless awaiting for my time to come to pass to leave my mark and honor thoughts that still betray me and cause me pain and to forgive them upon the judgment for I am merciful myself and have died many times my self… you ask how well it is simple every time someone is rude to me or calls me names it kills me inside and the wounds go so deep I cannot bare it anymore. Please try to understand the pain cannot be repaired I will carry it for all eternity and it ways heavy upon my soul and I long desire to forgive thoughts that have done me harm but good does come from this and I have a special connection with myself…. I feel the presence of my guardian angel... and have actually had it speak and appear to me once before and this is my main porpus of writing this…. It was dark black cloaked… it looked at me though my TV screen and walked towards me the hairs on my back sticking straight up and it spoke to me with ought words it was clearer than the clearest train of though and for a time it was all I heard and saw… time seemed to stop…. In my time as an outcast I have always sleeked to be out of the crowd or group… because of my experiences when I am in a group of people I don’t feel like I should be there I just get a gut feeling not to be there as if I bug everyone just by been gin there presence even when they invite me to them…. I have yet to find someone like me or someone I can talk to and have made many mistakes in my life but what I wonder is why me??? I seem to be developing strange activities with my mind such as meditating daily and for some reason inability to sleep it is not depression for I am not depressed…. Doctors don’t understand why….. I understand this and i am not crazy… though many think I am… I am still lost but I am still looking for my path…


Things are now starting to change I have met a group of people that are not like me but I get along with… They talk to me and seem to get to know me i am usualy heasatant to people but have not... i think finaly for once in my life I am not an outcast anymore....... yes there teaching me how to fight... i just used the "Ninja" to make people laugh... it didnt work they just though i was CRAZY but hey at least im makeing people laugh now anyways i will start keeping a diary now of my life and try to get all the stuff i dare not talk about in my lifetime while still alive in a safe place... i will think about updateing this every once in a while but i dont know...



thank you for reading maby now you will understand why i was like that in the past


Signed
Darkspen Travis


[ This Message was edited by: Midnight Fantasy on 2007-06-12 05:19 ]
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Huffywuffy, Mr. Builder
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Joined: August 20, 2003
Posts: 76
Posted: 2007-06-12 04:53   
There should still be a box with some sympathy somewhere in my room... I'm just too lazy to look for it.
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Midnight Fantasy
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Joined: June 12, 2007
Posts: 3
Posted: 2007-06-12 05:22   
Quote:

On 2007-06-12 04:53, Lord Huffy the Non-Brittanic Gaifen wrote:
There should still be a box with some sympathy somewhere in my room... I'm just too lazy to look for it.




I sayed no sympathy!!!!
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Joined: March 23, 2003
Posts: 11183
From: Bristol, England
Posted: 2007-06-12 05:28   
I still say yer certifiably crazy!
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Midnight Fantasy
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Joined: June 12, 2007
Posts: 3
Posted: 2007-06-12 05:31   
Quote:

On 2007-06-12 05:28, BackSlash *Jack* wrote:
I still say yer certifiably crazy!




yea i know
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DarkSpin
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Joined: August 03, 2005
Posts: 651
From: Somewhere in the USA
Posted: 2007-06-12 05:40   
bla bla bla..... im so weard someimes
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Coeus
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Sundered Weimeriners


Joined: March 22, 2006
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From: Philly
Posted: 2007-06-13 07:57   



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Fatal Rocko Willis
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Joined: March 01, 2003
Posts: 1336
From: Kentucky
Posted: 2007-06-13 08:08   
HEY! I know where to find that Pic!

BTW nice set of Emotes you have Coeus...
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Posted: 2007-06-13 08:33   

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Joined: October 22, 2004
Posts: 784
From: Florida
Posted: 2007-06-13 09:40   
depressed emo kid ?

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Joined: May 19, 2002
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From: Hawthorne, Nevada
Posted: 2007-06-13 11:58   
Vicadin will solve all your problems..





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Joined: March 18, 2004
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From: Maryland, U.S.A
Posted: 2007-06-13 12:43   
This makes me think of Goththug's post..

So, what eva.
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Little Pet Slinki
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Joined: April 16, 2006
Posts: 836
From: United Kingdom, South West.
Posted: 2007-06-13 13:35   
Step back and look at what You've said and where you've put it.

...Is DS the best place? You KNOW its just going to be trampled on.

Thats why people think your crazy.
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DarkSpin
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Joined: August 03, 2005
Posts: 651
From: Somewhere in the USA
Posted: 2007-06-13 14:12   
thats the point
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Posted: 2007-06-13 14:15   
ok....
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