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Veronw
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Joined: December 13, 2004
Posts: 554
|  Posted: 2007-11-27 21:08
*sighs deeply* I have not been myself of late, as some of you may have noticed. It has something to do with both this game, as well as my situation in real life.
I am ashamed to have been so brash and ignorant to have forgotten everything that i considered moral.
I have reduced myself to little more than a vagabond incapable of deducing the most simple differences between what can be considered right, and what can be considered wrong.
It has reduced me to a horrible thing, i throw myself into battle in this game, praying that i can just forget everything, and instead all i feel is hate enough to kill people in ways i never once imagined i would.
This may seem to be just the ramblings of a very confused teen, and you would probably be right, they are just ramblings.
I dont see what has changed in me to cause me to be so....foolhardy...but neverthe less, the players and people of this community deserve and apology.
I was never one who was ever considered something special by others, and i have always been just another player here, but i care about this game and this community. It has given me some experiences which have indeed changed my aspect on life (yeah i know its cheesy, but bear with me).
Therefore, until i regain whats left of my sanity, i believe i should take a break from playing...ive done nothing but make an infinite fool of myself, and i need to fix my life before something truly horrible happens.
I am sorry to everyone, i have been infinitely stupid and idiotic and to those i may have hurt in any way, my apology doubles and a request for forgiveness.
Thanks,
Veronw
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Sundered Weimeriners
Joined: March 22, 2006
Posts: 2815
From: Philly
| Posted: 2007-11-27 21:17
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Have a cookie!
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Little Pet Slinki
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Joined: April 16, 2006
Posts: 836
From: United Kingdom, South West.
| Posted: 2007-11-27 21:19
Yup, He's gay.
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buzzcoxss (Artisen Anitomical)
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Sanity Assassins
Joined: September 19, 2004
Posts: 144
| Posted: 2007-11-27 21:28
this is a gay note. or a sucied note? and u dont need to feel sorry for me m8 its just a game
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Lux (Polaris)
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Raven Warriors
Joined: April 20, 2004
Posts: 835
From: Asgard
| Posted: 2007-11-27 21:51
...where in this post does it suggest it's a 'coming out of the closet' post?
Anyways, Veronw...apology accepted, for whatever it was. You never really wronged me, so no harm done.
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GothThug {C?}
Fleet Admiral
Joined: June 29, 2005
Posts: 2932
| Posted: 2007-11-27 23:18
i never noticed a significant change to warrant an apology but....apology accepted  and yer still emo!  j/k
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buzzcoxss (Artisen Anitomical)
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Sanity Assassins
Joined: September 19, 2004
Posts: 144
| Posted: 2007-11-27 23:32
ya man dont be so hard on ur self u gota do what u gota do thow
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Tarnekep
Grand Admiral
Galactic Navy
Joined: October 17, 2003
Posts: 275
| Posted: 2007-11-27 23:52
not to worry Veronw and I had a good long talk and he feels much better in a way.....I hope our talk went good Veronw.....and to let you know that I am here to listen if you need someone ok BUDDY.....HEY WAIT A MIN THAT IS MY DOGS NAME......ok how about Friend
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*COMMANDERHAWK*
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*Renegade Space Marines*
Joined: February 03, 2006
Posts: 260
From: Denver Colorado
| Posted: 2007-11-27 23:55
get out of the house and have some fun. go to the movies with friends or just hangout noone should get so mad at a game that they wana kill someone... unless its halo 3 on xbox live. but on a serious note take care and ignore some of these responses to this post
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Phellan
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Joined: February 27, 2007
Posts: 220
From: Red Light District
| Posted: 2007-11-28 00:38
wow some of you are serious dooshbags... Anyone that gives the 'its just a game' argument doesnt know much about much cuz emotions are just as real when their shared online as in real life. Some people dont have the option. Vernon, I havent really talked with you so I have no idea what is going on in your life outside of darkspace, but I do understand something of what it takes to drive a person to the point your at. Im still there myself, trying to climb back from a place where I dont recognize my morals or my actions as my own. Although I doubt quiting darkspace will help, it seems logical to seperate yourself from those you might hurt, Im leaving the state soon for the same reason. I hurt people I swore to protect and had thoughts of doing worse. My only advice is that if you start running to keep from hurting those around you, remember to stop eventually. Otherwise the problem will never get solved and the darkness will eat you from the inside until something worse happens; you do recognize the bad thoughts and actions as your own. May you find the strength to come back from the edge, if for no other reason than darkspace needs players like you. Sometimes being a part of something helps.
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cookies help too
[small][ This Message was edited by: Mardak on 2007-11-28 00:38 ][/small]
[ This Message was edited by: JWA8402 on 2007-11-28 00:40 ]
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Eledore Massis [R33]
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Templar Knights
Joined: May 26, 2002
Posts: 2695
From: tsohlacoLocalhost
| Posted: 2007-11-28 00:42
First of all,
Yall come back one day ya hear.
Second i never am the one to read long texts but i did read this part.Quote:
| On 2007-11-27 21:08, Veronw wrote:
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Therefore, until i regain whats left of my sanity, i believe i should take a break from playing...ive done nothing but make an infinite fool of myself, and i need to fix my life before something truly horrible happens.
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sanity is something that is a big aspect with my self as well.
the problem is how you handle with it, most people need to take a brake, but in my case i use the internet as my sanity release valve.
For a healthy psyche. a good combination of outdoor activity, intensive work and relaxation is needed. this results in a balance of the mind.
If you find that you currently am unable to find that balance don't try to be a part of non direct physical interactive community for a while.
(e.g. online mmo, forums or even a weekly cardclub.)
I can give you advice, examples and my experiences, but that would make me not only type a very big post, but maby the biggest post of darkspace.
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Lord Raiden *Super Sup*
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Interstellar Cultural Confederation United
Joined: March 23, 2002
Posts: 91
From: London
| Posted: 2007-11-28 01:49
was this because me in metaverse earlier?
when whereever you went i just kept attacking you?
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Lacrosseian
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Joined: October 01, 2004
Posts: 1254
| Posted: 2007-11-28 01:53
This explains that one comment in the Random Lobby Quote post.
Anyways, good luck.
Also...
Have Key Lime PIE!
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-Daedalus-
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| Posted: 2007-11-28 02:20
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On 2007-11-27 21:19, Little Pet Slinki wrote:
Yup, He's gay.
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It does smell of cry for attention. I think we have seen this before from someone else.
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Little Pet Slinki
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Joined: April 16, 2006
Posts: 836
From: United Kingdom, South West.
| Posted: 2007-11-28 02:37
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On 2007-11-27 21:19, Little Pet Slinki wrote:
Yup, He's gay.
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It does smell of cry for attention. I think we have seen this before from someone else.
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Nono, Better than that, I was on Myspace IM talking to him before and after comforting him, aswell as talking to him.
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